Nikki's Diary (November 2000)

nov 3? sat..1 pm
tokyo,japan
were all jet lagged of course,but all in all,i feel pretty good except i feel like im on the verge of getting sick.i got the cold sweats.
we rehearse today at 4:00pm.im really looking forward to that.were doing more shows over here than usual...the fans here are so awesome.
we have some killer street teamers..there completely crazy..they cover the places in flyers,stickers,music...spreading the word of motley and americoma projects..
i was asked to write a song for santana's next album,so when i get home ill get with james an fire up something.
of course songwriting is a huge passion of mine that is sometimes forgotten about.people listen to music an judge it,but we forget that the music being played needs to be written..it doesn't just happen.
its a craft...and one i like sharing with other artist..of course crue's my love..and always will be...but this is a nice change for a while...in the next six months i hope to write and produce allot of music for others...then when the next motley sessions start it will be so fresh to write,i believe it will one of our best to date..mars has riffs for days....big fat crunchy rock riffs...go mick mars,go
bought the new zoom ps-2..
its amazing..drums,guitars...a vocal mic...all in the palm of your hand....
love and suishi..
motley...in japan..
(oh no,not again)

nov 6
11:00 am
im off to the outlaw usa store here on tokyo with mike.
ive been up since 6 am..if the jet-lag doesn't kill me this cold will.i finally broke down yesterday and got really sick...after the show last night i fell asleep with my clothes on reading* the mole people*(a story of the homeless who live under the streets of new york)
last nights show was ok...just like any first show....i guess the band notices more than the fans cause they were on there feet the whole time.
masaki(red beard)..a longtime fan and now friend gave me a wonderful gift.a book of all tattooed naked woman..
i got a show in Yokohama today...
bye.
the dog
nov 7th
osaka japan
we played another show last night in tokyo. it was our third show and i feel we finally sounded tight.
it is rock n roll..not a machine,so the the groove and grind slips and slides around from show to show.
today we took the bullet train here to osaka where we have our 4 th show in a row.afterwards we spend the night and have a day off tomorrow..i
i think osaka is the 2nd biggest city in japan and probably the last real chance for shopping (x mas is coming),so some of us will probably hit the streets and drop some yen tomorrow....
we got best** live band of 99** awards from burrn magazine last night,but i dont know how considering how much we drank here last year....
maybe the swig made the swagger...who knows...
we'll probaby get worst band next year cause were all being good this year..
isnt that just like motley??
haha
sixx

NOV (SOMETHING) OSAKA 8 AM
WE NEVER MADE A DISTRIBUTION DEAL IN JAPAN FOR 58,SO WE BROUGHT THEM WITH US AND SOLD THEM AT THE SHOWS..THEYVE ALL SOLD OUT AND THE FANS WANT TO KNOW HOW TO GET MORE...
I WOULD TRY ***CHECKOUT.COM*** UNTIL WE PUT IT OUT HERE IN JAPAN...
IM OFF TO HIROSHIMA IN A FEW HOURS...
THE DAY OFF ROCKED.......BEEN REALLY INTO ALTERNATE TUNINGS ON GUITAR LATELY, THE TRICK IS TO NOT MAKE EVERYTHING SOUND LIKE ZEP.
NIKKI

NOV 13 FUKUOKA JAPAN
LAST NIGHT SHOW WAS THE BEST OF THE TOUR.IT WAS OVER THE TOP WILD.THE KIDS WERE POGOING AND SHOUTING IN UNISON THE WHOLE TIME. IT WAS LIKE BEING IN MEXICO OR AMERICA...ITS AMAZING HOW THE CROWD CAN CHANGE THE WHOLE VIBE OF A SHOW.
I GUESS THATS WHY EVERYBODY LOVES DETROIT...
CANT WAIT TO GO SEE HOME AND THE FAMILY...
POOR DONNA IS GOING THRU THIS LAST TRIMESTER ALL ALONE...ILL BE HOME IN 7 DAYS(DAZE)
I GONNA TAKE THE REST OF THE YEAR OFF AND JUST WRITE MUSIC AND PRODUCE MUSIC.WHEN I TOLD MY KIDS I WASNT GOING ON TOUR FOR AT LEAST A YEAR..THEY RAN AROUND THE HOUSE SHOUTING AT THE TOP OF THERE LUNGS..YEEEEAAAHHHHHH DADS NOT LEAVING...DADS NOT LEAVING....
YOU KNOW I USED TO TAKE 12 MONTHS OFF BETWEEN ALBUM EVERYTIME.....WE HAVENT REALLY STOPPED SINCE VINCE CAME BACK.....I THINK ITS WELL DESERVED.....AND MUCH NEEDED.....
P.S. YOU SHOULD TRY ALTERNATE TUNINGS FOR SONGWRITING...NOT JUST A DROP D TUNING EITHER....
TONIGHTS 3 OF ANOTHER 4 IN A ROW...........
OFF TO NAGOYA...
WEDS NOV 15 SENDAI JAPAN 1 pm
THERE IS A SMALL STRIP MALL AROUND THE CORNER,IF YOU DUCK BEHIND THE MALL STORES AND GO DOWN AN ALLEY OR TWO, YOU FIND THE COOLEST OLD NEIGHBORHOOD STYLE SHOPS.I WAS STANDING THERE WITH KEVIN ( MY BASS TECH) AND THERE WAS THIS SHOP WITH LIVE FISH IN 1/2 WOODEN BARRELS.THATS NO BIG DEAL,BUT THE QUESTION STILL REMAINS...WAS IT A FOOD STORE OR WAS IT PET STORE?...
I CANT FIND A REASON TO BUY MUCH,THE LAST THING DONNA WANTS IS ANOTHER KAMONO.AFTER YEARS OF BRINGING BACK TRINKETS AND JUNK((SAME THING)) YOU DECIDE TO SAVE THE SUITCASE SPACE....YES,IM JADDED INDEED.....
SO I APOLOGIZE IN ADVANCE FOR NOT BRINGING BACK ANYTHING THIS TOUR..
A FEW NIGHTS AGO AFTER A SHOW ME AND KEVIN WENT TO GET TATTOOED.HE GOT THIS AMAZING HANYA MASK ON HIS LEG,ITS HUGE AND IT ONLY TOOK A FEW HOURS........I GOT A BASS CLEF ON MY HAND..I STYLED IT AFTER *SAN SCRIT* SO IT LOOKS RATHER ARTSY..I LOVE IT.....
THE LAST FOUR SHOWS WERE IN >>
HAMAMATSU,NAGOYA,FUKUOKA AND HIROSHIMA...
TONIGHT IS SENDAI..YESTERDAY WAS A DAY OFF> (TRAVEL DAY)..
TOMORROW IS ANOTHER TRAVEL DAY.. THEN THE LAST THREE SHOWS>>>
SAPPORO,IWATE,AND MATSUMOTO...
AFTER THE LAST SHOW WE TRAVEL BY TRAIN TO TOKYO..THEN TAKE A 2 HOUR BUS RIDE TO THE AIRPORT..THEN A 12 FLIGHT HOME..THEN A HOUR TO OUR HOUSES.....FUNNY THING IS WE GET HOME THE SAME DAY WE LEFT JAPAN...
THANK GOD FOR BOOKS AND MUSIC...THERES ONE T V CHANNEL HERE........
I HAVE NOTHING NEW TO SAY...SO RATHER THAN RAMBLE......
ILL SIGN OFF NOW..........
N.S.
I MISS MY FAMILY...MY HEART HURTS
go here.....
http://JAMESMICHAEL-ONLINE.COM/

530 pm
i sit here with my fingers glued to the keyboard.i wonder what it is i feel that i need to say.i e-mailed my wife/best friend today...and told her the air smells sour to me...
as you read this i realize sometimes i let you in..but you really don't know me......................its dark and dank an confusing inside me...but isn't that just part of being human?...only the critics remain perfect.they put everybody and everything in its perfect little place and who are we to argue ......what really matters is what's on the outside to them.(i agree just not to disagree)
today my heart aches for the cool breeze of southern Calif. in Nov. i care not what i do but where i do it rght now...
sendai might as well be hell for me...there nothing here but a show..one i don't want to do tonight..
oh my god,the artist is honest...crucify him...he should not have bad days,and never share if his glossy little world seems to of lost it shine....he should always sparkle and be that popstar icon cut right out of a magazine.
even though today i am only hanging by a thread....
i thank god,i thank you for giving me feelings....cause without alittle sorrow..i wouldn't long to be a better man... and an artist i am...i will always be....thanks to pain...
i feel a song....and i don't care who listens..its just for me this time...
ill be home soon my love....
keep the fire burning....

900pm after show nori from 13 designs came to the show..he always makes me these amazing gifts ( like the necklace im wearing on the *new tattoo* album)..he made all my skull rings...and arm bands...etc...he is way too kind...and his company is taking off big time here in japan...i hope ive had alittle to do with it....he has a huge heart and spirit....and is very talented
he made me this skull necklace like the one ive been wearing for years with the lock, and also a new one that has a coffin with the skull in the middle of it.... its so fucking awesome...he gave me a gift for donna...but i have to keep it a secret in case she reads this...
im in a better mood,its amazing what the adrenaline from the show can do to you....
i get sour....i get down....i am who i am.... but,i get over it
just like you>>>>
vince got branded last night...thats toooo fucking heavy....
im way too big a pussy for that..
..........hahaha
p.'s. i hung with #shinebone star# a few nights.....hes a fuckin crazy fucker.... really really great people..... any of you who know him online......i want you to know,hes one in a million...
good night...
*you may cut me down,but youll never cut me out...*

nov 17 the sapporo japan 11 am
room service menu...three words....simple enough..right?
yes im in my room..and yes there is service here...so two outta three aint bad...cause the menu parts fuckin scary...
pickled fish??
walnut porridge with japanese preserves?
my fav is always salted salmon with toast and tea for breakfast..((not))
looks like waffles again...one thing i know from being around this marble a few zillion times...its hard to fuck up a waffle...but shit happens...so ya just roll with it.....i could be really fucking daring an order (Fri. chef speciel),but it might be from that pet store in sendai.
went out and saw shaft last night...the best part of the movie was watching the japanese not get the black american humour...now i need the dvd of the orginal..
my suitcase reeks of dirty cloths and travel....i think ill buy a duffle bag and jam all the funk in there til i get home......its snowing outside....its so beautiful ((wish my baa bee was here))..ive never seen snow in japan before....kinda breaks up the monotony if you know what i mean.
20 minutes later
well just to keep you in the loop...room service just came...
looks like im off to micky-d's. they brought two small wierd loooking waffles with no butter and no syrup......
sometimes....you just gotta laugh...
sixx-san

5:15 pm
went with machine and spike down the street to a noodle house earlier today.had a some traditional roman and watch ed these huge black crows fighting in the snow in the park.then i came back and practiced guitar and fell asleep.la la,samantha and pearl went out shopping today,they all just knocked on my door with the coolest sweatshirt for gunner ( it says gunner on it)i think its a japanese large but it will fit him perfect..that was nice of them...were home in a few days so i better find something for each of the kids or im dead meat....
i have a feeling donna will be happy just to have me home as her gift (yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa>)
im off to the gig.....tonight the batteries are charged...looking forward to making some noise....
9:00 pm
the show was onfire tonight....my horns were out....i felt like breaking and destroying everything insight...now boredom nips at my heals....im not sure what to do...do i wander the streets in search of something/anything to break the boredom( theirs that word break again) or ingest a happy fuzzy lil pill and wake to a new day...we leave early for iwate...then after show travel to tokyo....and leave that very am for the last show....
sleep sounds boring...but in my best instrest...
maybe i can hang on long enough to call donna in La..( 17 hours behind us) before i crash (and shes just starting her day)
2 more shows...

10:30 pm
i walk this room like a caged animal...turning up the blaster everytime i make the 8 by 8 circle and walk past it.the distortion is almost un-barable....((for the nieghbors))...but fuck them.....fuck them all.....
i wait for the drugs to melt my face and shove me down into the crumpled bed and into a dreamscape escapist..
oh god,the sound it wonderful in the background,its....boz scaggs slipping and sliding in and out of groove after groove...
do you sometimes wonder why....?
is life sometimes a blur ?
sometimes i wonder if any of it will matter when were dead...
so why do we wonder why??
were all gonna die.....
some of us already have.....
good night.......................................................................

Nov.22
nov 22 11 am los angeles <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> Been home 3 days.i shook the jet-lagg of rather quickly this time.im sure everybody got home safe and is readying themselves for thanksgiving and the holidays,but i miss my friends when i come home..its common i know....but your life is thrown into turmoil when you leave for the road and when you come home...so it takes awhile to decompress to normal activities. the reason why i invented the rock n roll diary was to let you be a fly on the wall to a lifestyle.i hope for you to see sides of my life that other artists haven't shown you..its not all ups and and** we rock dude**.sometimes we suck and its ok to say it...we bleed onstage for you.... we make mistakes in life with you....we stray from our vision and rekindle our fires with you..your the fans and the voyeurs of the new frontier..enjoy the magic cyber carpet ride through the unexplained ...this isn't hit parader or circus magazine 1981..this is real time....straight from the mouth of filth...straight from the burroughs of life and death. the truth that is both glamorous and hideous.. <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> love is really important to me right now...i need it so bad i ache for it....ive been tied to the whipping post so long ive lost the will to fight back...i have to cut my self free and reinvent my reason for being an artist........this is a magical time full of love and music for me......( i have full control) im working on a new song called if you hurt the ones you love ( i must really love you)<<<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> i was asked "do i read any of our message boards??"my answer is yes and no...maybe once a month i poke my nose in there,,,but i skim around..i pass on the silly stuff cause i dont have time to go into a battle-bot with every knuckle head on the internet.....all do respect...i love your passion guys and gals.......but do it for your self..... <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> i am going underground for sometime....of course ill be back...ready to crack the whip and bust some jaws.....like any prize fighter..i got alot of great years left in me to kick ass........and i want to take back my bands belt...... <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> in dec our daughter will be born (f-j.m.s)....ill keep ya in the loop(((((talk about magic.....birth is the most magical)) and im really looking forward to january.....all kinds of music conventions..........ohhh yaaaa im getting hard thinking about it.... <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> sixxdogg

NOV 24 2000
Home Sweet Home
My life is blessed
We have four wonderful kids
We have one on the way
I feel more creative now than 15 years ago
But my soul is cursed
Cause everyday i feel pain and dilemma
It makes me write songs...
That fix the hole...and lets me realize..
That my life is blessed
My past leaves me broken,my present and future repairs
God played and evil trick on me.
He made me an artist
And maybe a lower trick on those i love....
For i must torture them.....
Donna is so beautiful pregnant..
I need to live in the moment...
My life is blessed
The batteries are now recharging..........
GOODBYE

NOV 25 10 PM
WROTE A NEW SONG TODAY
**WE WONT DIE FROM THIS**
ITS SO FITTING FOR WHAT IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH L8LY.....
ITS KNOWING THAT NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOUR HEART MY ACHE,YOU WONT DIE FROM IT..
BUT IT STILL HURTS LIKE HELL...
AS I SIT IN MY OFFICE I REALIZE TODAY WAS A GREAT DAY......IM LUCKY TO BE ALIVE....IM LUCKY TO HAVE FEELINGS....YES,IM RAW FROM THE ROAD(FROM FANTASY ISLAND)....BUT,I FELL A CREATIVE EXPLOSION COMING ON AND THATS WHAT WE NEED TO EXORCISE OUR DEMONS.....
ROCK N ROLL
NIKKI SIXX
P.SI READ THE FINAL CHAPTERS OF THE BOOK....ITS GONNA BLOW YOUR MINDS......I KNOW,CAUSE I LIVED IT...AND IT BLEW MINE....
THE DIRT(PT 1)
CONFESSIONS OF THE WORLDS MOST NOTORIOUS ROCK BAND


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