Dec 3rd

So today i go with Bob to my storage units.Weeding around in the past is dangerous business.Dont go there on a weak stomach.All the skeletons are waiting...lurking..old pictures of ex's,band members, good times ,bad times...stage cloths...smells of days,weeks,years,decades ago........

all my senses are on overload...i seem to be susceptible to emotion's lately i haven't had in years....

all of them are on the list too...

name one..i give you ten.....fucking hell...

i know i write great songs in times of pain ,anger and sorrow.....so whatever it is GOD has instore for me...you too shall live through too..

i wouldnt call it depression...or regression.....i think im growing and when you grow...there is feelings.......

now go get a fucking x mas tree..and snap out of it...

its only life.....

RIGHT?

DEC 4TH

948 AM

IM SICK AS A DOG...WHOLE FAMILY HAS BEEN SICK..I HOPE DONNA DOESN'T GET IT...WE GOT A BABY COMING IN TWO WEEKS,SHE NEEDS HERE STRENGTH..

FUNNY,I GET E MAILS TELLING ME TO** CHEER UP** AND THINGS LIKE THAT...

VERY SWEET....

BUT I DON'T THINK A Band-Aid IS THE ANSWER TO THE QUESTION.....

SOMETIMES THE INFECTION IS UNDER THE SKIN.... UNDER THE SCAB..AND YOU HAVE TO PEEL IT BACK AND SCRAP IT OUT.....

THE PAIN IS TEMPORARY,THE EFFECTS ARE FOREVER..

SO IN OTHER WORDS......THANKS BUT NO THANKS...

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dec 4th 11:59 pm

days end.

total deaths....none

wounded.......enough to make me happy

hanging by a thread....just one

close your eyes and dream of a better day....

s i x x

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DEC 5 2000

SLEEP IS THE ALL TIME GREATEST REMEDY.

YESTERDAY WAS A GREAT DAY..TODAY IS GONNA BE THE BEST SINCE MY DECOMPRESSION FROM THE TOUR.

IM SITTING HERE IN MY STUDIO DRINKING SOME JAVA GETTING READY TO START TO MAKE MUSIC.

WHAT A GIFT.

MUSIC.

ITS WHY WERE ALL HERE TODAY.....

ITS WHY YOUR READY THIS.......

ITS WHY IM WRITING THIS....

CAN YOU BELIEVE A YEAR-AGO PEOPLE WERE SITTING AROUND WORRYING ABOUT THE END OF THE WORLD COMING AT THE STROKE OF MIDNIGHT ON NEW YEARS EVE??

IN THE END..IT SEEMS ALL THE SILLY SHIT WE WORRY ABOUT...GETS PUT ON CUE CARDS FOR SOME SITUATION-COMEDY.

IM ALIVE....LIVE WIRE........

NIKKI SIXX

IN 11 DAYS MY DAUGHTER IS DUE TO BE BORN...

SHE WILL NEVER DATE A ROCKER.......HA HA

weds dec 6th

yesterday i wrote metal.

hard fucking core metal up your ass riffs..detuned and over blown......yeah

now to add the under tow of dysfunction and some pretty lyrics about the reality of our lives and its misadventures.

isn't music soothing...??

its kinda like being in a cocoon with just a razorblade and a memory.........

can you smell it????>>>its on my breath...

that wonderful smell is called sarcasm,and with a pinch of reality.... its makes for a deadly cocktail of fun and disaster............one we craved,cause we addicted...

to music..and music equals life....

drink up....maybe it will intoxicate you too..

happy holidaze you sick demented rockaholics

st.nik

p.s. its all done but the waiting.....

were giving a home birth..and were all ready for our daughter to come((its magical around here...)))........ but,just like a woman..im sure she'll be late...

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midnight...fried from the grind....im off to the wonder of dreamscapes.

sleep tight...

james comes over tomorrow....

got some songs to write....

im in a metal mood(58 meets sabbbath and chainsaws??)).......i need a new seq program...pro-tools is not the best in the midi-loop world...

guess i better find another program..or interface....

you gotta grow it,if ya want it to grow

dec 11 1958-2000

never thought i live to see the sun rise today....funny how life changes.....in fact,,its become an expected rush,,,,,,.i had a wonderful day....i was in my studio all day just locking pro tools to the yamaha su700...fucking helll........it got me hard....((i mean a major stiffie))

donna and the kids had some sweet gifts and cake for me...it was small and nice...they all love me so much...im a lucky man....

thank you guys.......soulmates???

i live music......i hear it in my sleep.....its always there.....i am music...since i was just a lad..it possesed me......

ahhhh ,why am i so friendly....probably all the love i got from my family and friends, calls,e mails...a big thank youto all of you......

i just pounded a bottle of red wine and few extra treeat to fill out the evening......

nothing like the feeling of becoming an artist again..

got a nice e mail from tommy wishing me happy b day......

and randy is doing well(his b day is dec 18))..and sams b day is today too......lots of sages.....were the best......

i would did playing bass on the hole album..sam and i really loock up.... what do you think>>????

my wife is wonderfuly pregnant....i cant beleive our daughter is just about here.....

homebirth........wow......this is gnna be a rish.....

what a life.............?

live and die by your own sword........

god blass..((red wine makes me everybodys buddy))

except dano...he sucks cock...and homey dont play that...all the power to him....but come on dano.......dude whats up with that????

st sixx
Dec 25th 2000
Xmas.

I sit here in front of the fire..Its crackling and snapping takes me back…. Back in time…. When the magic was real. and not all smoke and mirrors.
A time when there was a reason to get out of bed with the speed of excitement on x mas morning..…And a reason why to hang onto the delirium that only comes at the end of a day filled with wide eyed thrills from a pocket knife left under the tree by a magical man…

Thank god for the children.they reinvent us in there hopes.when you see them peeking out there bedroom door trying so hard to get a quick a glimpse of ol saint nick.
It's real.
It's so real I look forward to it more everyyear

Merry x mas to you all…….

Donna hasn't given birth to our daughter yet...

((just like a woman…she's late.)),

but she did give me the next sweetest gift of all. >>>>>>>. music…<<<<<

She gave me some amazing synths…ive been in my studio going out of my mind
((That’s not much of a stretch))
I love to layer metal with sludge and grease…it just gives the music such depth….
Isn’t that just like my life?

So last year this time..Everybody was running around saying the end was near,((the sky is falling, the sky is falling))…..Can I say something now that we’ve survived the naysayers?


The end is here…or at least right around the corner for all of us…. What really matters is how we live…. Not how we die…

Now…we got some goals?
It’s that time of life…isn’t it?

To decide if you sink or swim…

Lay down and take the bullet like a coward or stand up…and take it in the face…are we mice
or are we
men?
What’s life without risk???…. Three greatest four letter words.
1.love
2.risk
3.fuck

What’s your New Year gonna be?

Big or small,
short or tall.

Everything…or another year…

with nothing accomplished at all…





Happy holidaze and have an amazing New Year…
Sixx